I wasn't born this way, was I?

We often heard this phrase, "I wasn't born this way", "I supposed to be a better person..." or "I was trapped with the circumstances and was forced to be like this" or worst, "God created me this way..." This happens all the time, anywhere, with most people among us. Well, folks... It's true that most people regret their own nature, they blamed many thing in life, instead accepting that was the result of their own free will, they were the one that choose to be like that, choose to walk that path.

With all respect, I'm not trying to corner some people here, which have a different lifestyle from most people in the civilization. But, I'm trying to invite all of us to re-think about this matter of fact for a moment. If we choose to stay neutral for a while and try to see it from nobody's boots. See everything just like how it is supposed to be.

I believe that each of us is the product of our past. We are what we did and experience in the past. It is the bitter truth that each of us faced and dealt with all along. There is nobody that isn't their past's product. One way or another in somehow somewhere in certain point of our life, we faced a certain occasion that change or give a certain kick in our memory that made us be like we are today. Whether it was good memories, or even a dark traumatizing experience.

We grew in this corrupted world, where everything wasn't in perfect harmony anymore... All things that happens in this world got the potential to bring harm to us. I'm not exaggerating my statement here, nor even bubbling another unnecessary fear here. They only way to attain a perfect life is to be aware of everything. That's why I invite each of us to be mentally alert with these things, that all so long had been ignored from our conscious mind.

To bring a great change in life, we had to start with a big realization of things, many things, that could possibly the major cause of our misery. In this case, this topic, is the past that each of us got behind us.

Many nowadays theory, teach us that each of us is the product of our past. It is true, but the answer of our struggle to survive was unsatisfactory enough. Mostly these self-help theory suggest us to accept our nature. Acceptance is the one and only cure. You become like that because that is the way you were destined to be. So rather than struggle any further and causin unnecessary pain. It will become wiser to stop struggling and accept that. At certain point, I do agree with this, but it doesn't stop there. We gotta do something! Not just accept everything become the victim of our past, and sit back and just let the past drive our act wildly, causing another further damages. No! It should stop, and it wasn't supposed to be like that also.

We are what we did/experienced. It is true! We should accept our past, any bad things, unfavorable memories, et cetera... It also true! But then, after you're done with make peace with your past, it doesn't mean that you can now freely walk the path that your past had brought you into. I don't want to mentions examples here, since it brought many controversial issue here. I'm avoiding unnecessary argument ahead. But if you insist me on mentioning one example, Here we go...

"Let say, that I was a normal kid, and grew in a normal family, but, somewhere somehow I didn't grow into a perfectly normal guy, I got this insecure feeling being as my gender suppose to be in community, I got a 'gender identity crisis' I feel insecure to appeal in the community as a man I supposed to be, I feel deep inside that I was a pretty girl, but I was too afraid to confess to other... In the end, I moved far-far away to another town, got myself hooked with plastic surgeon, make some tweak here and there with my body-parts, went into governmental administration bureau make some paper work, and voila... I lady I become..."

That is one example, one common example we can find easily these days... They believe they wasn't born that way, they feel insecure and many other argument. Maybe several numbers went into a counselor, and got the same advice, to make peace with the past... Accept it just as it is...

But it wasn't supposed to be like that, I never was... People these day quit to fast... They got cornered, stuck in certain position, and give up... Dear fella, it wasn't suppose to be like that.

We have to fight for what was right. What God created us to be, If you were destined to be a big tree, why end your life as a sapling? If you were destined to be a great person, why give up as a big loser?

Hereby, I invite us, each of us, together, to make peace with our past, but then continue walk on, struggle, fight, and in the end... conquer our problems, the problems that our past cornered us into. It can be anything, overeating, shame, pain, certain disorder, certain addiction... whatever.... We can change our life, since it was ours to begin with, the life is present, what matter is present, not the past, so... Fight it, with all of your might, fight like there will be no tomorrow, and mostly... Expect God to enable you to walk the path that you choose to walk. The fight that you willingly choose to fight. The fight to freedom, To a better me, To a better tomorrow...

Never give up hope, dear fella. Never give up...

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The Reason of my existence

I once remembered, asking myself about the reason of my existence.
I believe, that some of you, my dear reader... also ever experience this... Askin the same question to yourself. 'Why?' Yes... 'Why?', 'Why ever I existed in this world?' There must be some kind of purpose in it, well, if you agree with me that we come out and produced out from one Great Almighty Deity that we also known as God, you will also agree with me that we got a reason behind our existence. But for those of you who believe that we just came from cosmic particle that was produced out of nothin under the great law of gravity, and many other outstanding evolution theory, maybe you deserve my pity, since you got no reason to live and therefore got no purpose of living also, since you just exist by some mathematical possibility, and from whence just keep on living until you returned into nothingnes... What a pity...

Okay, it's been running too far from I predicted, but let's return to our main topic...

"There must be an answer.... NO! There should be an answer! Since God already created me, and make me walk my life... So, There must be an answer!"

Yes, indeed... "There must be an answer for my existence," you know, behind all of this things, this worldy thingies, this daily struggle, all this pain, hurt feeling, sad, and miserable life...

Maybe we all tired of living our life, and began to question about the reason off our existence... Maybe sometime we felt like we are being toyed by a bigger wave, tossed to and fro within this current of life

There must be some reason, there must be! It is true my friend... It's true, there might be reason for everything, including the reason of our existence. But, sometime we forgot about it, or to lazy to think, to open our heart and mind, and to lazy to seek.

Therefore, dear readers, I just ask each of you to do this simple things. It seems too easy, too good to be true, or too silly for all of you, but believe me. This is the only way, to know the answer of your existence.

Just like the things we used to do when something in our house happen to be broken, some electrical appliances maybe... If this happen, what will u do? Ask the manufacturer rite? Well, too complicated... U call the technician, the one that had learn the way to repair thingies from the manufacturer. Then that technician will come rite away and fix the problem... Done! All back to a happy life, where everythin functioned well...

The same applies to our life, like I mentioned before, Ask the manufacturer, "why must the manufacturer?" u said. Well, goes to the manufacturer will be much better and give u a way better result rather than callin a technician, since there is a possibility that the technician cheated or pretended to be the person he didn't(an imposter I mean).

What I'm tryin to tell u, my dear readers, is that the fact... that life is hard, yes so true... Life is full of struggle, Indeed. But life, can turned sweet,"if only you know your life purpose, and the only way to know your divinde purpose of living is by asking 'the manufacturer', Yes... Ask God -don't began to actin funny now- Ask Him, because He is the one who created us, the One who is in charge in everything.

But, how?-good question- How.... We wonder how? How to ask Him, and how can I ever know it, if He replies, since I never heard Him talking to me.... Well, you got that wrong, my brothers n sisters.... God talks to you, all the time... (yea rite, such a crap)

No, believe me...

Have you ever wonder when you need to do something but dunno how to solve it, but suddenly you got an idea about how to do it, u try it, and it works!

Have you experience this? when you were alone and feel so insecure, and got nobody else to depend unto, and at last you ask God for help, and suddenly you got the courage to stand again, out of nowhere...

Well, the only explanation is that God is the one that doin the job there, He talk to each of us, in a way so simple, that sometime we doesn't recognize it as His works... But in fact, He is....

So now, we know where to begin... Ask God... or should I give you the gist of it?

If you ask me, I'll tell you according to what I know. And what I know comes from the Bible.
Bible tells us that God created us because He is love and He love us so, and He create us in a good nature...

If you know this fact, that He create us because he love us so much, it will help you to walk this life much easier... (Yea, easier to says than done... The talk job seem always that easy...) But it's true... God love us so, sometimes you doesn't realize it, but He still a loving God, and the fact that we still inhale the air without any problem proove my statement... What happen if suddenly the oxygen taken out from the air? No more life existent.... We all died... See? It's one of the small proove that God do love you... So, by knowing this fact, won't you see that there is a "Person" that still love you, always be there for you. And always eager to have a good relations with you.

When you know that... It will give you the awareness that because the one that created you love you so, it means He will do all good things to you in your life. No bad things comes from God, and it means your life should be a better one, not a miserable one.

If you know that you were loved by Him, there must be a small fix in your lifestyle. Now, we life for God, since He is the creator of our life, he holds our future and destiny. In my latest post, I already share you about losing something to gain everything. Now, I'm gonna emphasize it one more time, and try to quote it from different perspective.

"When you give your life to God, it seems that you had lost it now and then...  But actually you got something better... Something waay better that what u can afford when u tried to do by your own... Since He is the creator, it means He owns everything, and if the owner gave u a happy life, He'll do it, and He promised to give u a wonderful life, a future full of hope."

So, dear friend... I invite you to do it, live your life for God, because when you decide to do so, it means you will gain a life that leaded by God, the life that you can never imagine of, a life full of suprise and joy moment with the touch of the Master's hand....

Divine calling, to know that I am loved, that I can live my life with my Creator, to returned my right of living my life by my own power to Him, and gain a new one that is full of my Creator plans for me, full of the good things that He got in store for me....

Be Blessed, all...

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